Patience Is The Key

This is a story I copied from a website.. I felt sad for the father :(

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A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car.

Finally, on the morning of his graduation, his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat Disappointed, the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Quran, with the young man's name embossed in gold. Angrily, he raised his voice to his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Quran?", and stormed out of the house, leaving the Quran.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a Telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things. 

When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search through his father's important papers and saw the still new Quran, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Quran and began to turn the pages. His father had carefully underlined a verse, 

As he read those words, a car key dropped from the back of the Quran. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.

"The beauty of life is not dependent on how happy you are, but on how happy others can be because of you"

Picassa

Good morning, I like this Picassa painting. Today I'm going to be out of office on a seminar with Warren Buffet genius, Robert P Miles. He should have a good insights on investment and equity trading. By the way... I'm feeling a little bit lonely nowadays :(

Baby Gabon

How Can I Tell Her?

This song by Lobo. Don't you think that this lyrics mean a lot?
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She knows when I'm lonesome, she cries when I'm sad.
She's up in the good times, she's down in the bad.
And whenever I'm discouraged, she knows just what to do.
But girl, she doesn't know about you.

I can tell her my troubles, she makes them all seem right.
I can make up excuses, not to hold her at night.
We can talk of tomorrow, I'll tell her things I want to do.
But girl, how can I tell her about you?

How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.

How can I tell her I don't miss her, whenever I'm away?
How can I say it's you I think of, every single night and day?
And when is it easy, telling someone we're through?
Ah girl, help me tell her about you.

How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.

Be Strong My Heart

I really couldn't sleep well last night because I woke up many times in the middle of the night and the pain got more real everytime also. I don't know who to tell this to. Despite knowing how much they love me, I obviously can't tell my parents because they will be sad thinking that their daughter has gone mad. Despite being her only sibling, I obviously can't tell my sister because she has warned me that online relationship will never work. Despite being the girl who he loves so much, I obviously can't tell my ex boyfriend because it will cause him pain knowing that I fell for another guy and got hurt by that. I only have one place to relieve all my burden... I have my God only. I know it is Him who want this to happen to me, but I don't blame Him for the pains I got... He must has planned something beyond my logic. I just need to trust Him.

I tried to be his friend, to be his sister. I thought it won't be this painful hearing him talking about the other girl, I thought I can handle it. I, strangely, do not know how weak my heart is.. I have put it on the sleeves, exposing it to the world, and hoped that it wont get hurt. I totally wrong, it pains so much that I keep saying to myself to be strong. It pains so much.

I told him to give her a chance to know him, I told him to pursue her if he has a feeling for her. I told him not too worry about the future and just let it flow with her. I even encouraged him to ask God to decide for him. It wasn't a fake advice, I want to see him happy. I might don't know how hard times went by on his side of the world, but I'm sure he has waited for so long and he deserves to be happy... I'm just feeling sad that I won't be there to be happy with him because it pains so much. I'm not your wonder woman who can take all the pains of caring for you. My heart can break and tear apart.

Be strong my heart...

Because it pains so much...

My Funny Lion

Saadat...

This chapter is for you, as well as the previous ones in which I mentioned the word "you", it refered to you. It was a very nice time I had with you for the last 1.5 months. If you remember, we first chatted on 17 June and talked much almost everyday since then. Ofcourse it was not everyday, because you wouldn't come online when you're not at work. That days off made me miss you a lot. 

I thank you for cheering up my days after the hard times I had with Azeem. You are funny and amiable that I love being around you... I mean I love talking with you and sharing stories. You have many interesting, stupid, and silly stories which you openly shared with me and this is just not a trait that I can find easily from others. Not many people are able to express their thoughts and feelings and share them with someone else without being afraid that they will be judged for their stupid mistakes or silly acts. You just did it well, and I think that is what I like about you.

Ooh I did it again, I told you that I don't like you calling me "friend" and I feel like angry on you when you tell me about your dates. I wish I had a heart of stone that I wouldn't feel anything for you hehehe I'm sorry for making you scared of my abundant emotios. If you remember... I asked you back then, "do you think we will still talking to each other on August?" and you replied, "ofcourse, why not?". Now, the very first day of August... I'm waiting to see you online and talk to you, but you didn't show up. I sent you email asking how's thing goin there, but you didn't reply. Saadat, you guessed it wrong... we don't talk anymore on August.

If I can have one thing regarding you, all I want is that I can be your best friend... a friend that you will not leave when she says "I like you and your companion", a friend to whom you can share any stories with, without being afraid that she will angry on you because you date another girls :) How's that possible?

Afterall, this farewell from you does not hurt less. I'm going to feel sad for the couple of months, especially when I go online and will not find you anymore there. But, once again thanks for being there on my hard times... my funny lion, live happily in your jungle.

August?

Good morning my dear friend...

I slept enough last night and thank God that the mosquitos didn't disturb me. On this Saturday morning, early of August... what can I share with you? By the way, last night I went golfing with my friends. It was not really golfing because what we did was driving, learning how to swing the stick and how to hit the ball as far as we can. It was fun though, I will need a glove and more practice :)

Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you about the movie I watched two days ago. I'm sorry for not being able to write as often as I did before. The movie was "The X-Files" and it was thrilling. There was a priest who has been accused for conducting sex abuse to his male students. He grew old regretting his sins and kept asking for God's forgiveness. I noted his comments when a woman blame him for what he had done

"Where is this uncontrollable desires come from? Where is this disgusting appetite come from?"

"Not from me... I have castrated myself a long time ago"

I think what he said is true... it is God who gave him the wrong desires, but still God also wanted him to be close to Him by giving the feeling of regret inside his heart. It is not what someone had done in the past which matter, but how someone learns from the past and then does the good thing in his present life. God is the most merciful, he will welcome anyone who seeks His blessings.