My Personality Defect

I'm an Emo Kid hahahaha

A Woman At The Sea

Since I Chat Online

I Met My Mr. Right Through Chatting in IRC

by jenny

Here it goes.. a long story, yet I wish some people will be appreciated it. Have you guys ever wonder that you gonna find yourself a mate through internet. I have, i found my mate, a guy who is so sweet, loving, with sense of humour.. he has all the good character of a gentleman.

I went to a cybercafe on that day, and at there I started to chat in MiRC (as it was famous among youngster to make friends). He used the nick 'Mrsingle'. I clicked on him and we chat for a long time. He asked for my phone number and without hesitation, I gave my home phone number, wishing he would call me and talk with me at the phone, later at night. He also asked if I would not mind to meet him.

In my heart, I can felt my heartbeat beating fast and thinking was it okay to meet him? Would he do anything bad on me? I looked over all our chatting conversation..i felt i can trust him ..why not meet him? Sure he won't do anything bad on me. I told him how I looked like and what dress I wore.

He came to me at last to pick me up and I still remember my first impression on him. He looked dark, cute face with dimple on his cheeks. At that time, he wore a jersey in blue color and black pant, not a good way of dressing to date a gal, I said to myself. But never mind... at least he showed up to meet me in person. So I paid my usage of computer, and went with him. He brought me to his workplace and saying sorry that he still have some works to be done and asked if I wouldn't mind to sit and wait for him for few minutes. He treated me some ice-cream and a soda. I watched him working and I found it was so fascinating and nice. He even asked why I keep looking at him and smiled sheepishly at him. I ignored his question and keep flirting him with my eyes and smiles. We talk a lot about our works and life.

After that, we went to his car together. I asked where we are planning to go now and he asked do I mind if he gonna bring me home, and I said okay .On the way, he make the first move, he held my hand and hold it tightly, without letting go. He drove one-handed all the way.

Along the way, I kept looking at him and my heart seems like beating thousands times in a minute. I kept asking myself is he the one that I have keep on waiting. He just kept quiet and drove, we had enjoyed the silence in the car, holdings hands tightly.

When the car going to reach my house, I asked if he would like to bring me around again or maybe to a place before sending me home. I don't want to go home at this time, I told him and he said okay. We went to a dark place, a location where a couple would spend the whole evening there. All these sensations and feelings came out from my heart. I had never felt like this before to a guy, maybe it is what it called love at first sight through cyber.

We dated, keeping contacts and never miss a single day, calling each other through phones. I felt every minutes without him, I would miss him like I haven't seen him for a long time. Now we have dated each other for 2 and a half year and we love each other so much.

I have got myself a Mr. Right through internet-chatting. Every single day and night I am with him. I have never felt like this before. We are planning to get marry at this end of the year, and God bless us that we can be together as husband and wife. I loved him so much and with my whole heart, without him, I would felt like I am losing a soul mate in my life. He is everything that I have ever had, my best friend, my partner, my soul mate and of course my Mr. Right.

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awww... what can I say?

Make Me Fall In Love With You Again

This morning I texted him, asking how he was doing. Then I told him last night I dreamed he texted me in which he didn't call me 'hani' anymore, but call me 'Frita'. He said that it will eventually come true, he just needs some time to stop calling me 'hani'. He said that it was a long 5 months of awaiting. His heart ached each day in its constant longing for me, while I talked about the other guy to him... so mean in his opinion.

Maybe I am mean

He sent me a poem which he wrote by himself. There he expressed how the past moments and journey we shared together was a treasure for him. However, when we reached the end of the journey, I betrayed him by leaving him for another guy without even considering his feelings. He implicitly conveyed that I was not sincere. He said goodbye.

Maybe I am not sincere

He told me that it was the last time he wrote something for me with heart, it will never be happened again. He will forget everything.

Maybe I don't deserve anything from his heart

One thing I know, I don't like the way he accused me for being a betrayer, mean, and insincere. Once he told me that he wants to find a way back to my heart... this surely is not the way. I will never be able to fall in love for someone who keeps so much anger, hatred, and pains toward me. How will I be able to fall in to his arm while I'm afraid that there's a sharp blade behind it?

He is the one I know very well, I sometime considered to take the chance of letting him make me fall in love with him again. But maybe it doesn't matter anymore, he might never try to make me fall in love with him again... he said goodbye.

Maybe goodbye is the best for us

Ladies.. Check This Out!

I found a link on google, it is an e-book in which many heart-warming stories from women are written. Oh hoo they are so sweet... reading it makes me feel like I was taken to the place where the stories were lived. It felt like visiting an old place, seeing those friendly faces, smelling the air, feeling the warm weather, and hearing the chanting of the crowd.

"A Cup of Comfort for Women in Love"

http://books.google.com/books?hl=en&id=OChzblyEFCcC&dq=inspiring+true+love+story&printsec=frontcover&source=web&ots=c85pf44Uta&sig=T_uHZALYk1b5eOHltESyF-e0e8o&sa=X&oi=book_result&resnum=8&ct=result

By the way, have you been in the beach on the early evening, like at 4-5pm? choose a secluded one, or atleast one which is not really crowded. Watch the waves touch the shore, feel the wind breeze on your face, and hear the sound of the sea through your soul... you're alone, no one else with you, but you enjoy the moment and feel at ease as the sea embraces you. I like to call that kind of feeling as UU

By the way, those are poppy flowers in the picture. I don't know where was it, but the building looks like a Greek's creation. Old shattered things, dreams, or memories can be beautiful in some ways :)

Magic Lines

I like to play this game so much on my spare time. A friend couldn't even cross 20 points hehe. You should try it.

True In My Opinion

There are some ways of thinking that I found very appealing, here are some which I remember

1. Life is unfair

....but there's always something that we can be thankful for.

2. Looks are temporary, characters last a lifetime.

....yet it is hard to fall for the character at the first place. Does it mean I don't have a good character since I prioritize looks at the first place? But there was strong character that captured me badly, despite the less attractive look which covered it.

3. We can't choose our destiny

....every path we crossed and will cross is given by the God. Only God can choose, while we are so powerless.

4. For a couple: she is a lover when he's 30. she is a friend when he's 50. she is a nurse when he's 70

....maybe that's the reason why men look for much younger women to be their partner.