Saturday, August 30, 2008

Ladies.. Check This Out!

I found a link on google, it is an e-book in which many heart-warming stories from women are written. Oh hoo they are so sweet... reading it makes me feel like I was taken to the place where the stories were lived. It felt like visiting an old place, seeing those friendly faces, smelling the air, feeling the warm weather, and hearing the chanting of the crowd.

"A Cup of Comfort for Women in Love"

By the way, have you been in the beach on the early evening, like at 4-5pm? choose a secluded one, or atleast one which is not really crowded. Watch the waves touch the shore, feel the wind breeze on your face, and hear the sound of the sea through your soul... you're alone, no one else with you, but you enjoy the moment and feel at ease as the sea embraces you. I like to call that kind of feeling as UU

By the way, those are poppy flowers in the picture. I don't know where was it, but the building looks like a Greek's creation. Old shattered things, dreams, or memories can be beautiful in some ways :)

Magic Lines

I like to play this game so much on my spare time. A friend couldn't even cross 20 points hehe. You should try it.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

True In My Opinion

There are some ways of thinking that I found very appealing, here are some which I remember

1. Life is unfair

....but there's always something that we can be thankful for.

2. Looks are temporary, characters last a lifetime.

....yet it is hard to fall for the character at the first place. Does it mean I don't have a good character since I prioritize looks at the first place? But there was strong character that captured me badly, despite the less attractive look which covered it.

3. We can't choose our destiny

....every path we crossed and will cross is given by the God. Only God can choose, while we are so powerless.

4. For a couple: she is a lover when he's 30. she is a friend when he's 50. she is a nurse when he's 70

....maybe that's the reason why men look for much younger women to be their partner.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Azeem Is Engaged!!!!!

Frita: assalamualaikum Azeem

Azeem: wailakum asalam frita. how are you?

Frita: i'm good here thx. u?

Azeem: Im good! so busy

Frita: ooh working on homeworks?

Azeem: yes homework. lots of writing

Frita: :) good luck. but u like it so far ?

Azeem: yeah I like LA. ive been keeping busy. i should probably tell you this. so you know, but I recently got engaged actually

Frita: ooh really? with who?

Azeem: especially with our history. I should tell her that. yeaah a girl from out here. we met through a friend

Frita: wow that's fast. i'm surprised

Azeem: yeaah

Frita: but also happy for you :)

Azeem: it all happened really quickly. thank you

Frita: so after engagement.. there should be a marriage

Azeem: yes, not sure when though

Frita: hehe. tell me more about her

Azeem: well shes three years younger than me. a student of architecture

Frita: she's pakistani too?

Azeem: yeah

Frita: that's great

Azeem: urdu speaking pakistani though. so a little different culturally

Frita: have u brought her to meet ur parents?

Azeem: yes. her family came right before I came here and they met my family and everyone got along

Frita: hmm sound so sweet

Azeem: shes really cool though. we get along really well. shes into music and art and things too

Frita: aww just like a fairy tale things

Azeem: she plays the drums in a band

Frita: u and her suddenly meet and fall in love aww

Azeem: yeah its so quick

Frita: hehehe

Azeem: but we're so similar and get along well

Frita: good good

Azeem: so I've been happy with it

Frita: i'm sure u are and i'm really happy to know this news

Azeem: thank you. I guess its been a while for us. so time makes that easier

Frita: hope everything goes well between u two :)

Azeem: thank you. keep me in your dua

Frita: yeah i've handled things pretty well, so i'm fine :) sure i will pray for u

Azeem: thank you. I will keep you in my duas too

Frita: thank you too and dont forget to tell me if u have the wedding date

Azeem: ook prob next summer, maybe beginning of the summer we're thinking

Frita: hmm next may?

Azeem: possibly. we dont have a date yet, we'll figure that out soon. we're having an engagement party on the 30th of this month. my family is all flying out

Frita: that'll be a big occasion

Azeem: yeah that will be exciting

Frita: wish u all the best :)

Azeem: i wish all the best for you too!

Frita: thanks. wow i'm still surprised, things went so fast in ur part of the world

Azeem: yeah well other things too... I decided to drop out of library school

Frita: i will have to catch up soon hehehe


wow my heart is pounding so fast hahaha, oh my God it is really a news! He must be a very good guy, this way Allah has led him to his soulmate in an unpredictable ways... but fast, easy, and wonderful!!! I wish you all the best Azeem :)

Hehehe I Draw It

Bored reading the test results of me? hehehe ok don't be upset, I drew something for you... see how cute it is! I'll be the smallest fish, and you be the biggest one. So when you chase after me, I can escape by hiding behind the seaweeds or the corals hehe

Knowing My Heart

A very straight forward result. This suits me!


The Heart on Sleeve - Dependent, Idealistic, Intimate, Explicit

You are the most brazen of hearts, the Heart on Sleeve. You are highly emotional and idealistic, and crave love, but are candid and forthcoming. You are not one to hide your emotions, and couldn't even if you tried. You know what you want from love, and believe in the ideals of love over the sensuality of it. You are all about love in its purest form and aren't afraid to broadcast it or to express your desire for it.

Matches for the Heart on Sleeve:

The Heart of Gold
The Heart of Gold shares your loving qualities, but also values harmony and independence. The Heart of Gold will always be there for you, and you will respect their intimate nature and ability not to be taken aback by your candid and plain nature. You will find they share the same ideals of love that you do, as well as a value of your relationship as a whole.

The Lively Heart
The Lively Heart shares the same ideals of love as you, but is more passionate in expressing it. The Lively Heart is just as forthcoming as you, but independtent enough to not be bothered by it, lessening the clash of personalities. You will find the Lively Heart to be energetic and fun, as well as deep and complex.

What Did My Dreams Reveal About Me?

I took this test after I lost Azeem.. and it seems to know that I was hurt badly


Losing your Grip 
Your dreams reveals that you may be feeeling powerless, anxious and out of control these days. Maybe you recently lost your job, or perhaps you're struggling with the loss of a loved one. Whatever the case, you may be feeling like a ping pong ball, hit back and forth between problems that you can't influence or control.
Your dreams may be trying to tell you that it's time to make that big decision you've been putting off or that you need to accept that you're going through a tough time. So try to relax and remember that this confusing life phase will eventually pass.

My Dating Personality: The Priss - Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer

Sounds so true to me hehehe


Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

My Best Match: The Mixed Messenger - Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer

Here's the dating personality of the guy which should match me best. Hmm sounds true for my ex boyfriend, he is mixed, he is a good influentator


Just...take...the...fucking...flower...darling. The Mixed Messenger apologizes again.

You're looking for love, but you'll always maintain your independence. You're prepared for a real commitment, but it's also likely that you're ambitious, which creates a certain romantic tension and ambivalence within you. So although you can be very affectionate to someone, you are also capable of pulling some dubious shit.

In a relationship, you're usually the emotional leader. With your friends, you're a little bit more part of the pack. You're well-liked but you're not the uninhibited type, so the spotlight's often on someone else. In both social and romantic situations, however, you almost always get what you want. Influencing people is something you do very well.

Enneagram Test - Type 6, The Questioner

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative. 

How to Get Along with Me 

Be direct and clear. 
Listen to me carefully. 
Don't judge me for my anxiety. 
Work things through with me. 
Reassure me that everything is OK between us. 
Laugh and make jokes with me. 
Gently push me toward new experiences. 
Try not to overreact to my overreacting. 

What I Like About Being a SIX 
being committed and faithful to family and friends 
being responsible and hardworking 
being compassionate toward others 
having intellect and wit 
being a nonconformist 
confronting danger bravely 
being direct and assertive 

What's Hard About Being a SIX
the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind 
procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself 
fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of 
exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger 
wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right 
being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations 

SIXes as Children Often
are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn 
are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger 
form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent 
look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel 
are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent 

SIXes as Parents 

are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty 
are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence 
worry more than most that their children will get hurt 
sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Patience Is The Key

This is a story I copied from a website.. I felt sad for the father :(


A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car.

Finally, on the morning of his graduation, his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat Disappointed, the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Quran, with the young man's name embossed in gold. Angrily, he raised his voice to his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Quran?", and stormed out of the house, leaving the Quran.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a Telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things. 

When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search through his father's important papers and saw the still new Quran, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Quran and began to turn the pages. His father had carefully underlined a verse, 

As he read those words, a car key dropped from the back of the Quran. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.

"The beauty of life is not dependent on how happy you are, but on how happy others can be because of you"

Tuesday, August 12, 2008


Good morning, I like this Picassa painting. Today I'm going to be out of office on a seminar with Warren Buffet genius, Robert P Miles. He should have a good insights on investment and equity trading. By the way... I'm feeling a little bit lonely nowadays :(

Monday, August 4, 2008

Baby Gabon

How Can I Tell Her?

This song by Lobo. Don't you think that this lyrics mean a lot?

She knows when I'm lonesome, she cries when I'm sad.
She's up in the good times, she's down in the bad.
And whenever I'm discouraged, she knows just what to do.
But girl, she doesn't know about you.

I can tell her my troubles, she makes them all seem right.
I can make up excuses, not to hold her at night.
We can talk of tomorrow, I'll tell her things I want to do.
But girl, how can I tell her about you?

How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.

How can I tell her I don't miss her, whenever I'm away?
How can I say it's you I think of, every single night and day?
And when is it easy, telling someone we're through?
Ah girl, help me tell her about you.

How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.

Be Strong My Heart

I really couldn't sleep well last night because I woke up many times in the middle of the night and the pain got more real everytime also. I don't know who to tell this to. Despite knowing how much they love me, I obviously can't tell my parents because they will be sad thinking that their daughter has gone mad. Despite being her only sibling, I obviously can't tell my sister because she has warned me that online relationship will never work. Despite being the girl who he loves so much, I obviously can't tell my ex boyfriend because it will cause him pain knowing that I fell for another guy and got hurt by that. I only have one place to relieve all my burden... I have my God only. I know it is Him who want this to happen to me, but I don't blame Him for the pains I got... He must has planned something beyond my logic. I just need to trust Him.

I tried to be his friend, to be his sister. I thought it won't be this painful hearing him talking about the other girl, I thought I can handle it. I, strangely, do not know how weak my heart is.. I have put it on the sleeves, exposing it to the world, and hoped that it wont get hurt. I totally wrong, it pains so much that I keep saying to myself to be strong. It pains so much.

I told him to give her a chance to know him, I told him to pursue her if he has a feeling for her. I told him not too worry about the future and just let it flow with her. I even encouraged him to ask God to decide for him. It wasn't a fake advice, I want to see him happy. I might don't know how hard times went by on his side of the world, but I'm sure he has waited for so long and he deserves to be happy... I'm just feeling sad that I won't be there to be happy with him because it pains so much. I'm not your wonder woman who can take all the pains of caring for you. My heart can break and tear apart.

Be strong my heart...

Because it pains so much...

Saturday, August 2, 2008

My Funny Lion


This chapter is for you, as well as the previous ones in which I mentioned the word "you", it refered to you. It was a very nice time I had with you for the last 1.5 months. If you remember, we first chatted on 17 June and talked much almost everyday since then. Ofcourse it was not everyday, because you wouldn't come online when you're not at work. That days off made me miss you a lot. 

I thank you for cheering up my days after the hard times I had with Azeem. You are funny and amiable that I love being around you... I mean I love talking with you and sharing stories. You have many interesting, stupid, and silly stories which you openly shared with me and this is just not a trait that I can find easily from others. Not many people are able to express their thoughts and feelings and share them with someone else without being afraid that they will be judged for their stupid mistakes or silly acts. You just did it well, and I think that is what I like about you.

Ooh I did it again, I told you that I don't like you calling me "friend" and I feel like angry on you when you tell me about your dates. I wish I had a heart of stone that I wouldn't feel anything for you hehehe I'm sorry for making you scared of my abundant emotios. If you remember... I asked you back then, "do you think we will still talking to each other on August?" and you replied, "ofcourse, why not?". Now, the very first day of August... I'm waiting to see you online and talk to you, but you didn't show up. I sent you email asking how's thing goin there, but you didn't reply. Saadat, you guessed it wrong... we don't talk anymore on August.

If I can have one thing regarding you, all I want is that I can be your best friend... a friend that you will not leave when she says "I like you and your companion", a friend to whom you can share any stories with, without being afraid that she will angry on you because you date another girls :) How's that possible?

Afterall, this farewell from you does not hurt less. I'm going to feel sad for the couple of months, especially when I go online and will not find you anymore there. But, once again thanks for being there on my hard times... my funny lion, live happily in your jungle.


Good morning my dear friend...

I slept enough last night and thank God that the mosquitos didn't disturb me. On this Saturday morning, early of August... what can I share with you? By the way, last night I went golfing with my friends. It was not really golfing because what we did was driving, learning how to swing the stick and how to hit the ball as far as we can. It was fun though, I will need a glove and more practice :)

Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you about the movie I watched two days ago. I'm sorry for not being able to write as often as I did before. The movie was "The X-Files" and it was thrilling. There was a priest who has been accused for conducting sex abuse to his male students. He grew old regretting his sins and kept asking for God's forgiveness. I noted his comments when a woman blame him for what he had done

"Where is this uncontrollable desires come from? Where is this disgusting appetite come from?"

"Not from me... I have castrated myself a long time ago"

I think what he said is true... it is God who gave him the wrong desires, but still God also wanted him to be close to Him by giving the feeling of regret inside his heart. It is not what someone had done in the past which matter, but how someone learns from the past and then does the good thing in his present life. God is the most merciful, he will welcome anyone who seeks His blessings.